I got home late last night and was so delighted to be home alone in my very quiet house. This morning I got up and felt overwhelmed with everything that still has to be done to leave and I felt totally and completely alone, lonely. How can alone be wonderful last night and feel devastating today? I’ve been single for 11 years and it’s not what I want, yet, now I feel like I am actively choosing it. I cried a lot today. Some of it was my friend’s stuff that I was carrying after visiting them. Some of it is because I just feel beat up with all the last minute Antarctica stuff. I have lost the ability to make decisions. I can’t pack or research because I don’t know where I’m going. I don’t know if I am selling or renting my house. I am stuck. I had so much trouble working today or doing anything for that matter. Because one major decision can’t be made, my ability to make any decision is lost. This is very uncomfortable.
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