I did my Emergency First Responder class tonight. It’s similar to the Red Cross First Aid and CPR classes. I have to take that before I can do the Rescue Diver course.
Now off to a weekend in Grand County with Mike and Lisa! I’m looking forward to mountain biking and hanging out with them. I’m also looking forward to spending some time with Colorado Mother Nature as I will miss the Colorado mountains when I leave.
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There is a company in Bali that I am quite impressed with. They make houses and furniture out of bamboo and are trying to teach people about the sustainability of bamboo. They are affiliated with a school, a hotel, and a kids camp also. I researched all the companies and think I would love to work for any of them. I sent my resume and a letter to Ibuku, Bambu Indah, Green Camp, Green Village, and Green School today. I feel really drawn to this group of companies. It would be great to work with them in some way. I got a standard response that Green Camp receives a lot of applications and they will get back to me.
The realtor I was thinking of using to sell the house said she’s list it for $265,000 with the hopes of selling it for $250,000. I’m not quite sure what number I was hoping for, but this was not it. I think I’ll look for another realtor.
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I might want to work as a divemaster. Maybe, I should be ready for that. I did a little research. You have to have your advanced certification, then you can get your rescue diver certification and then divemaster. Well, I have the advanced certification so today I signed up for my rescue diver certification. It will be too much to do the divemaster certification here, but this should set me up for it. Plus, it’s not a bad skill set to have!
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I watched a bunch of videos about unlocking cars. It looks pretty easy. This is going to be a fun way to volunteer at Burning Man. It’s also kind of eye opening how easy it is to break into a car if you have the right tools.
I got word back from GSC that all the positions I applied for were filled already. Ooops sorry, we didn’t contact you?
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Someone posted on Next Door Floyd Hill that they are looking for a new house to rent in the fall. I contacted them. It doesn’t hurt to make some contacts in case.
I sent emails to all the companies (5 different companies) that I applied for Antarctica jobs to see if I could get a status update since none of them have responded – not even “no”.
Still don’t know where I’m going if Antarctica doesn’t happen. I feel stuck on making a new plan because I’m waiting for Antarctica.
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After I got my ticket, I asked Katie who she thought I should camp with at Burning Man and she said the Fucking Flamingos – the group she camped with the year before. I knew a couple people at that camp and contacted one of them. He put me in touch with another guy who sent me a bunch of information on the camp. I told him about my plan to only do planning/prep for Burning Man if it is simple and stress free. He suggested I was doing Easy Man this year. This camp seemed to be a good fit for me and I love meeting new people. Sign me up. Ticket – Check. Home on the Playa – Check. Now to find a ride out there. Well on my way to making Easy Man a reality!
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A Burning Man ticket code arrived in my email inbox today. I guess a ticket fell in my lap. The main reason I was ok if it didn’t happen was because it is always a lot of work getting ready to go. It can be stressful. I decided to make this the most stress free trip to the playa yet. If it requires a lot of work, drama, or stress, I’m not doing it. Think I can pull it off?
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This year I didn’t plan to go to Burning Man. I was co-working with Katie today and she asked if I was going. I said I didn’t think so. She looked at me and told me that didn’t sound like a real no. I told her that if a ticket fell in my lap I’d go, but I wasn’t putting out an effort to look for one. Later we went back to the house and as she was getting ready to go out for the evening, I told Travis about the conversation. He told me he just sent off his request for tickets for his team 10 minutes ago. “Oh well, I told him, it’s ok. I’d be happy to go, I’d be happy to not go”. Later in the evening, he told me he sent out another email to see if he could get one more ticket for me. If he could, I’d have to do a shift for Lock Out, unlocking cars. That sounds fun!
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I decided that I want to spend my weekends out in nature. That is the reason I moved to Colorado in the first place. I want to spend some quality time with Colorado before I leave her. I started this quest with a weekend with my friend Doug who lives near Steamboat Springs. We went hiking and 4wd at the flat tops. We had so much rain this spring. This is the most wildflowers I have ever seen. It was like hiking in a botanic gardens. Well played mother nature, well played.
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I went on facebook this morning and saw pictures of a bunch of my friends at dinner the night before for a friend’s birthday. Why wasn’t I invited? I feel like all the people I invite to do things with me don’t think to invite me. Am I the friend no one really likes, but no one wants to tell? Why do I go through so much effort to include people or spend time with people who are not willing to do the same for me? Am I choosing friends unwisely? Why does everyone else seem to have a close group of friends and I’m always sort of a friend? I feel if I stopped reaching out, I’d only have 3 or 4 friends. Is there something inherently wrong with me? Am I not lovable? Am I just preparing to leave the country and life is just making it easier to go? I think this a common human issue and a lot of us feel like this not knowing it just isn’t true. Not realizing a lot of other people feel this way too. Or knowing it’s a lie, but not knowing how to stop the reaction from happening.
I had a session with my coach today and a lot of this came up in the session. Summary of the process: I feel like a small child in a dark room crying out for help and no one is coming. This comes up a lot for me in process. I felt the infant cry so hard until the nervous system had to shut down to keep the baby from dying. Something is wrong and I cry out, but no one is coming and I can’t fix it. I don’t know how to fix it. I can’t do it and no one else will. As an infant the only thing I could do was shut down and energetically leave my body because I couldn’t fix what was wrong. I can’t move forward. I can’t move because if I do, no one will follow. If I move forward, I will have to do it alone. I will be alone in the world. I feel like the sales brochure for life was wrong. I paid for, signed up for two. I was promised two. There is no two, it’s just me. No mommy is coming to help me. No mate is coming to share his life with me. There is no knight is shining armour (stupid stupid fairy tales). There is no two. There never was. I feel lied to. This is not what I came here for. Near the end of the process I felt like my arms and legs were disintegrating, slowing evaporating up off the table. This was fascinating. I was becoming not solid. I was disintegrating into everything around me – ONE. There was a small part of me that wasn’t happy about this experience. If I disintegrate, I will be nothing. I don’t want to be nothing. If I’m not part of two, am I nothing?
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Rraine Drops 