Today I feel ready to move to Thailand. I feel that life supports me.  I feel like something else is going to happen job wise other than teaching English.  I am forging the way for something, I just don’t know what.  For me today, the question that keeps coming up is, why am I still afraid to awaken fully?  What am I actually afraid of?  The question comes up because I feel aligned with life, yet I have a headache and my back hurts.  What am I holding or am I just feeling stuff that other people around me are dealing with?  I’m still not good at know when I am feeling my issues in my body and when I’m feeling issues tha are actually someone else’s.

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I hardly slept last night.  What did I sign up for?  Why did I chose a hot place?  I hate heat.  By mid morning, I felt better.  Something about daylight makes it easier to think straight.  I grew up in Florida.  I worked in Florida and we wore suits to work.  I didn’t die of heat stroke.  I can do this.  Plus, now I have an excuse to buy new shoes!  New rule: No more internet after 10pm.  It’s too late and my brain can’t handle what it might find.

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Tonight I wondered if I had the right clothes for teaching in Thailand.  I know it is more conservative than here, but what does that look like?  So did a little research on the internet.  I can’t wear pants.  Skirts have to be at least to the knee.  I have to have my shoulders and chest covered.  No sandals.  If the local teachers dress less conservative that doesn’t mean I can.  Foreigners are held to a different standard.  If I don’t dress appropriately, they won’t tell me even if I ask.  They are too polite.  They just won’t renew my contract.  If I live and work in a small town, I will be expected to dress like this all the time except at the beach.  No sandals?  I love sandals.  I’m going to die of heat stroke.  I don’t know if I have enough clothes to match these requirements.  Commence melt down.

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I started researching Xpat Insurance tonight – very confusing.  Did you know that I can have health coverage anywhere in the world except the US for one price.  If I want to be covered in the US too, it’s almost double.  Wow, what does that say about our “wonderful” health care system?

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