Car Mafia

Car Match found a driver for my car.  It’s basically a lease to own situation.  I got all the paperwork last night, but some of it was wrong.  The revised paperwork was in my email this morning.  But before I could even check my email, I got a call from a demanding woman with a heavy accent.  She was wanting to pick up my car today.  Whoa, what a painful way to start my morning.  I told her that the paperwork wasn’t done and the gps tracker wasn’t in the car yet.  She was angry.  I have to install a gps tracker in the car and they were supposed to overnight it to me.  I couldn’t stay at home because there were showings all day.  So, I’m sitting at a coffee shop and having trouble connecting to the internet.  I called my friend, Ed, who told me I could borrow a company truck.  He said to just go in the office and tell the receptionist I was the one he had told her about.  I called her and she said she thought I was no longer borrowing one and she couldn’t give me one until she talked to Ed.  Neither one of us could get a hold of him.  Hours later, I finally get the car paperwork signed.  The demanding woman called me again to pick up the car – now.  I told her I couldn’t give it up until I had the gps tracker.  Then I got to go to a meeting that took me an hours and a half to get to, but the meeting only lasted 5 minutes.  By now I’m overwhelmed, frustrated and just tired.  Car Match called me to tell me the gps tracker is at my house.  It’s too late in the day to go home and get it.  The snow is starting to fall, it’s rush hour and Katie and Travis are throwing a going away party for me shortly.  The guy at Car Match was quite unhappy that I wasn’t going to go home and get it.  The demanding woman calls again stating she has to pick the car up today.  I wasn’t very nice this time.  I tried to reschedule for Saturday or Monday, but she said no and hung up on me.  Now I’m sure I’m dealing with the mafia and they are going to come drag me out of my car and cut off a finger to remind me not to mess with them.  Then they are going to leave me on the side of the highway in the snow with 5 bags of stuff from my car.  Because, you know, the mafia lets you keep your personal belongings after they cut off body parts.  Then I left ridiculous voice mails for the Car Match guys and went and crawled in Katie’s bed and cried until they came home.  It took a long time to let it go, but the frustration passed.  Having a party with friends helped.  Plus, I didn’t put the gps tracker in yet, so the mafia doesn’t know where I am…….

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I went to the dentist today.  I might have a cracked tooth.  The dentist said it was probably a hair line crack.  He thought he could see it, but it didn’t show up on an xray.  Apparently there is nothing that can be done until it gets worse.  Huh?  Who knew?  This is new to me.  I don’t remember ever having a bad dentist experience and I don’t feel anxious about going, but the whole time they are working in my mouth, my entire body is tense – especially clenched fists.  I’d notice it and tell myself to relax and then a minute later it’s back.  The bill hurts far more than anything they physically do.  I’ve had two knee surgeries and sinus surgery without being able to take pain meds after.  Why does a dental cleaning make my body act like it’s terrified?  Is it the collective fear that most people have of the dentist?  Did something bad happen that I don’t remember?

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I really started missing Zachery today.  It felt like the day after Christmas.  The fact that I probably won’t see him for years and that any romantic relationship between us is probably over feels very heavy.  Today, I am definitely not ‘loving what is’.

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I’m a Rescue Diver!

I got my rescue diver certification this weekend.  Whoa, that was exhausting.  Lake Chatfield is cold and dark and murky.  What a nasty place to dive.  Dragging “victims” into shore all day was physically challenging, especially when they are big men and I’m a tiny woman.  But, I must say, I rocked it.  Saturday night I went home, ate dinner and went straight to bed.  Almost the same thing today.  It must be a popular place to practice rescue as Little Fire was there today and both days rescue dogs were practicing.  Today there were rescue Newfoundlands.  What beautiful dogs – made me really miss my Saint Bernard, Kuma.  It was almost comical at times to look out across the water at all the pretend victims splashing around.

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