For a couple of months now, I’ve been getting periods of light headedness.  It’s usually in the afternoon to early evening.  I don’t feel like I’m going to faint or fall over, but I do feel like doing anything other standing, sitting or walking might not go well.  My vision goes a little blurry and I don’t feel equipped to make decisions or have conversations.  It was strong about a month ago, but doesn’t happen every day anymore.  Of course, my first though was, oh no, I have some horrible mosquito borne disease and I’m going to die.  Then I wondered if it was too much exposure to the bug spray I’ve used to kill house invaders.  It seems to kill everything.  Or, maybe I have a brain tumor and only have one week to live.  Once I’m done with the dooms day thinking then I settle on a new theory.  I think it might be a combination of stress, bad diet and nervous system changes trying to happen.  I think there is re-wiring going on in the brain and my body is trying physically to change the way it takes in and processes information.  Then the stress of what am I going to do next, how am I going to pay for it, teaching, what creature will I find in my house next, how am I going to pack up all my stuff, will my house sell, why is my car such a drama…….blah blah blah…..then all this stress stops the physical process from finishing.  Or maybe some of the stress is a result of the physical process.  Maybe the drama needs to be flushed out first.  So, now whenever I feel the light headedness, I just try to relax into it and just experience it instead of worrying about it.  I’m also trying to eat more veggies.  I would like to drink less coffee and eat less sugar, but I’m not there yet.  They are both very addictive.

As always, when I read one of Almaas’ books, he’s describing exactly what I’m experiencing.  I started a new book called the Unfolding Now.  I found it quite funny that when I opened the book in my nook (Barnes and Noble’s version of a kindle), it split the pages of the cover sheet so that the title of the book appeared as The Unfolding No.  I found this very funny.

So, I leave you with a quote from Almaas that describe things I am experiencing right now.

“In our work, each of us will encounter challenges; we will arrive at Crossroads where we have to make changes. These challenges and Crossroads will help us to develop. They will enable us to realize the life of Truth. The more of those challenges we have, the more chances we have to realize the true perspective. If your life is comfortable, if you are always getting what you want, you might think it’s great. You might think “everything is going wonderfully. Now I can do my spiritual work”. In reality, it doesn’t work that way. The more comfortable you are, the less chance you have to make the choice, and the less chances you have for the choice to be clear”.
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